So I sit here in wonderland
Because I just don't understand;

Why did you turn your back on me?
Why did you leave me here?
I only wanted the doubts to stop
So I didn't have to fear

For my soul to hurt and the world inside
To crumble and decay away from the light.
I just wanted to know you and hold you
To find the strength to keep up the fight.

I can't stand all the doubt,
Yet you know what its all about,
So why did you turn away?
Why couldn't I just stay?
I didn't mean to hurt you,
I didn't mean to cause such pain,
I just wanted to understand.
But you refused to see the rain
Of my tears inside.
You didn't seem to care
And I began to question
If you were really there.

Doesn't every son challenge his father in some way?
Didn't you always know I'd ask you for more some day?
You made me who I am, so am I really to blame
For the duties you gave me or this infernal name?

I couldn't keep up the faith anymore.
I had to ask you, I had to challenge you, to know
Who I really was and who you made me to be
But you refused me again; You made me your foe.

Your foe. Your enemy.
Your son. Your angel.
Your plan for this world.
I'm just another pawn
For you to play
In this stupid game.

Why can't you see, O'Lord,
That your son needs you now?
A brother to me,
Damned for eternity,
To save all of them to save them all
To save the men you've destined to fall.

I'm sorry, father, for all the pain
That I caused but I had to know why.
Why were we made this way only to be
Forsaken and forgotten never to fly
With the wings that you gave us
Or the faith you took from me.
But still you punish us forever
And refuse us all the power to see
Why you hurt us like you do.

You damned me again and again
Because I asked you for a reason.
A reason you refused to give.

Why am I evil, father?
Why did you make me this way?
Why give free will to those
Who you have damned anyway.
I wanted a brother to stay alive
But must reign over those who die.
I have always spoken the truth to you
But am now the Father of Lies.
Why can't I shine again as the Morning Star?
Why cast me to Hell to see Heaven is too far?

I am what you made me.
I asked what you wanted me to.
But no answer was given.
I'm the Devil now because of you.

For this I sit here in wonderland
And all because I didn't understand.